Getting Back to Work

Right now that picture is the scariest sight to me. I have been off work for a little while now with Depression and Anxiety. I was very close to a break down in December but luckily I went to the Dr before it got to that stage. So now I'm coming to the end of my time off, my medication is kicking in and I'm due back at work next week. Only I'm not going back to the work I knew...I have been given a transfer to another store. It's exciting to have a kind of new start, however it also terrifies me to no end. Obviously a few weeks off hasn't cured my anxiety, it's still very much there and going to a new store where I don't know anyone or how things are done is a horrible thought. I hate the idea of being the new girl. Especially because I am in a position where I need to be able to get the staff to respect and work for me. I will be fine once I get back into the swing of things, I know that because I love working. I'm not someone who could give up work and do nothing. I enjoy the sense of achievement when I do a good job. It's a real boost. So although I am absolutely petrified I am not allowing myself to take anymore time off. I have had more than enough time and it's time I get a but tougher on myself and sort myself out. Scared but in a positive way is how I could be described right now I guess. I have a lot of ambition when it comes to work this year. Although I enjoy the job I do, it's not really what I want to do. I currently work in food retail, and although I am happy to stay in retail, I just don't particularly want to be in the food industry. I would really like to get more into beauty or fashion retail. There's not a lot of opportunities in these areas where I live but I am extremely determined to get where I want to be. I want to make this year a good one, one to remember. xx