So I turned 25 yesterday!!! Aaah! I actually don't know how I feel about this. On the one hand it's just another birthday on the other hand it scares the bejeezus out of me! I mean 25! A quarter of a century! Surely I should be feeling like a proper grown up by now. Instead I still feel like a little kid. I still get that excited feeling you get as a little kid the night before your birthday or christmas even though I know I am going to be disappointed because it just isn't the same anymore.
The scary thing is I'm still not doing what I want to with my life, actually no, the scary thing is I have no idea what I want to do with my life yet. All I know is I want to be doing something I love, something worthwhile doing, something I can look back on and be proud of. What that is and how I'm going to do it, I have absolutely no idea at all.
Don't get me wrong my life isn't all doom and gloom. I think I have done pretty well for myself, I just always think there has to be more. I don't like when things get boring and I'm not being challenged.
I have achieved a fair bit though. I have been working in retail since the age of 16 and managed to work my way into a deputy manager position until my depression took over last year leading to me stepping down. At the age of 22 I bought my first house with my then boyfriend and this year I married him. I definitely think I am older than my years and I just need to remind myself now and again that there is plenty of time yet.
I had a nice quiet day yesterday, I went for lunch with my mum and my mother-in-law. That was nice, and then last night graham and I made some party food and watched Frozen with a glass of wine.
How do you feel about getting older? Does it ever bother you?
Julz
I had a nice quiet day yesterday, I went for lunch with my mum and my mother-in-law. That was nice, and then last night graham and I made some party food and watched Frozen with a glass of wine.
How do you feel about getting older? Does it ever bother you?
Julz
